Oh ya ya ya ya, Ah love my life! : Unchartered Waters

Hello All!

I feel like I'm studying abroad. Hahaha ^o^. I, right now, am moved from the place I was before. Yes yes, I know, -- I've been sort of a Nomad lately. Like for the past year. I just moved today from someone's apartment where I had been living for 5 months--- after having only expected to stay there for 1 weekend. Yeah, big difference and a long story. I am right now, temporarily staying somewhere else for dollars a day (the other place was free-- I knew the person). I've been looking for a place to stay since August, and I think...well, I'm preparing for that to come true, by the grace of God. But in the meanwhile, I am staying in a rented room now. I found it online on a website a few days ago. I booked it at night. I met a cool girl. And I have all that I own in this state with me now, packed up and in luggage, as it has been for the past year and couple of months

In short, I am excited. Why? Because my adventure is being more adventurous. My journey is becoming more adventurous, and I am excited about my life. I am still working my full time job downtown. I am still much involved in my church and getting involved in other things in the environment around me in general. And guess what? I have SOooo much more clarity on who I am now. God revealed me to me. Who I am, what my purpose is. Now, I am searching exactly how I am going to manifest that. Through what means and what specific shape(s) it will take. I am ... excited. I am excited! life is definitely worth living and I love the God whom I serve, aka, my Father, the best, the One my heart belongs to. I love Him. And I love the life He's given me because it is limitless in its possibilities, Lovely in nature, and endless in its vibrant experiences of adventure. I love adventure. And this one life has sureeeely been an adventure. Hahahah.

See ya later ;)

O.F.C.J.

I Could Really Use...

A Mentor!!

*Hughhh* (exasperated sigh)
I really wish I had some guidance at this point in my life, and many others too. Things are not going as badly as they could be--but that's not the point. The point is, they're not going as awesomely as they could be. And that's what bothers me. It's like having a bunch of resources, but not knowing exactly how to go about refining and utilizing them to achieve your vision. I hate that. I mean, some of it is my fault, OK, maybe more than some. But still, geez, a little mentorship wouldn't hurt.

My own place to live

So, living in DC is sooooo.... ugh, how do I say this nicely...I can't--Stupid!!! Ok, just had to get that out. It's frustrating because the area is SO ridiculously densely populated and finding an inexpensive apartment seems impossible. GRR! The average 1 bedroom is at least 1000, and definitely more. While I could go ahead and indulge in this price tag, I'd rather save my dollars for better things and find less ridiculously expensive housing. AND-- I really...Oh, really, want to get my own place! I've left the last place I was staying and am now floating in another pond. But my own pond would be thrice as nice. I want my own pond!! Not literally...just a place to call my own :( . But I know I'll get one soon :)).

A Good Friend

So living far from my previous home is hard in some ways. I miss the real estate prices, the scenery, a lot of the lifestyle.... But I also miss having close friends. Here, I've yet to develop any. And while I can call whoever whenever, it's just not the same. First, there's no guarantee they'll pick up, second, face-to-faces provide opportunities more and many more different types of relationship bonding, like: "seeing" how the person is doing, and vise versa, sleep overs, long chats over ice cream or other foods and or beverages, baby showeers, birthday parties, lovely outings, catching exciting looks as you retell a recent event, HHhhhahh, ...O my gosh, I TOtally just made it worse. Stupidness. Lol.

Some Love

OK, so don't think I'm talking about men here, because I'm totally not. OK? But I am talking about that place where you feel like you belong and are quite comfortable with the environment around you. Where others' actions are enacted sincerely for your good, whether that good be to see you smile, to see you succeed, to see you correct yourself when you slipped and messed up big time, or just to--well, see you :). I love that place. Sadly, I haven't had that in like forever, and not just becaue I moved here. But that is a whole 'nother blog post that I'll probably never write. Ha. But though it's something I've seldom (hm, can't remember...) experienced, I would love to have it. Love is a necessity in life, from Jesus(got that just need to learn how to accept it better), from the people around you (Uhh, considering my environment-- need that), and yourself to others (OK, fine, need that too. >:P ). Love is a series of consistently sincere motives from a purified heart, for the pure benefit of other expressed through actions that act as the fulfillment of those motives. This, needless to say, would be awesome right now.

Some clarity

I know on this blog it always seems like I'm asking for clarity, because I am. I need more insight to my "big picture", you know, my life. And while it's sloooowly coming, I know if I quit lolly gagging and stay away from discouragement and complacency, I'll get it quicker than I think possible. Now to pep myself up....


Contentment.

I want it. ...That's it.



So, I tried thinking of some other things I could really use...but that pretty much sums it all up. Everything else would just be a derivative of the things I've already listed. Or maybe it would be the other way around.... Oh well. Of to be productive and try to get some of these things now.




L8r :)




O.F.C.J.

Thoughts On My Health

Hello ;D

So, I've been thinking about my teeth, as they've been sensitive lately, and getting rid of the sensitivity with a dentist visit. But then I realized I'd have to go through a drilling to do that, and I don;t want my teeth drilled, and filled with non teeth substance. I want my teeth!! So of course as I usually do, I Bing'd the natural ways--if any--of healing cavities or rebuilding enamel or what have you. And, wonderfully so, I found that, of course, it is possible to regenerate your teeth!! Because they heal themselves--that is, as long as you give them what they need to do so, and don't stall the healing with abrasion and erosion from certain foods you eat. I'm so excited!!

It just made me think about how you so many things--everything, is cure-able, heal-able, reversible, using the healing properties of nature---you just have to know how to extract and apply these properties. And what resources to extract them from. I love it. I've read online of some people healing their teeth, it takes years--of course--but just like bones heal (hello!!! teeth are bones too!) teeth heal too, but it takes time.

It makes me happy. I can't wait 'tll I'm a bit more settled in and can experiment with a new, better diet (not like a lose-weight diet--I don't do those, too small!!--but just my general daily diet). They say, not too surprisingly, but pleasantly enlightening, that the way you eat affects how you feel (moods), cope (adapt and respond to situations), and consequentially, your overall outlook. Of course eating right won't fix the test you failed, no, you'll still be sad about that. But!! You may have a more balanced mood and state of mind overall, and therefore make better decisions (like studying more efficiently and effectively and therefore passing your test! Yaaaay.)

I want to try new awesome stuff 9 i have before, but even more so with my hair, mind body, skin, diet, and spiritually (that's a whoooole 'nother story, don't even get me started!).

I'm gonna be soOO gorgeous inside out!!! MuWahaha!! Yay. This require good planning... Hmm.

Ok. That is all for this post.

Ta ta! ;^)

O.F.C.J.

HELLLOO!!

Oh Hello trolley people. So long since I've seen you!! ^-^. Whose fault? Well...let's not go into blame here. Let's just be grateful that we're together again ^-^.

Oh, blog. with your vivacious splashes of color, and subtle yet tingling-ly (is that a word? It is now! :^D ) refreshing colors that bring life and give life to my page. Oh how I love you so dearly with a part of me that is glad she put so much effort towards creating and designing it. And therefore shall not let it go to waste. Because you know what they say, though it tarries, it will not tarry---i.e. I'm back. Lol. So I see people have been visiting my page from international locations and the U.S. since I've been gone. How nice :). And thank you.

So, how's life. Well... EXCITING AS EVVERRRRRRRRRRR O MY gOSHshshsh!! Lol. really though. The new job is going well, though sometimes I feel myself slipping. I'm picking myself back up though, or shall I say, I have picked myself back up, in faith.

I'm currently searching for something very big (to me) right now.

So much has happened since the weekend of August the 15th. So much. What was meant to be a weekend, has turned into over a month. Sheesh, talk about using 400 years to take a journey of 40 days!!! I am searching for a very big piece of my puzzle. My puzzle of settled-ness.

What is it. Could it be a place to live? Peace of mind? Vision and direction to my destiny? Security? Friendship? Love? Or all of the above? I'll leave you pondering. but I must say, this rollercoaster, though woozy-ing, and vomit-inducing a'time--is not boring. Hahahah.... No, not at all. My life is something else.

This weekend in particular has been very powerful. So many prophetic words have been spoken, and claimed. So much energy. I actually lost my voice a bit. It may seem like the theme of this blog is repetitive and I talk about the same things a lot. But that's only because, well, I do! Haha! It's about my life!! And (umm, as you can see from the gap in posts) I only write when I'm stricken to, and usually what strikes me is my current situation, which, being a process---a marathon, not a sprint--- has been in a similar stage for a while, with gradual progress between phases.

SO, have I made progress? YeSS!! I have more clarity in who I am and what my gifts and abilities are, I have more money, --HalleluJah!! And I'm one more step towards pure independence in living. Thank God!

Now, someone tell me why real estate prices are so expensive up here? Ugh. Makes me wanna go back to the Good Peach. BuhGeez!

L8r Gators,

O.F.C.J. B^)

It's Official.... :)

Hello!!

I am again... a working woman. It's been a while. Months, and days. But God has done it. The new job starts soon, and it has a lot of responsibility, but I'm excited and ready to go, or will be soon ;).

And you know what this means. I'll be able to move soon. Yes. My own space soon (with roommates, yes, but independent of family). Family has been kind, and I'm grateful, but it's time. It is time. I give all of the thanks, glory, and praise to God Almighty. Thank you Jesus.

That is all, for now. Update you later ;).



O.F.C.J.

P.S. Longer Letter Later

Hello!

I'm just posting in to say...
that things are happening....
Interesting things are happening. ...And...they're good?
Hm. Might be. Just might be ;)

Also, sister's moving soon. I have to leave in less than 2 weeks. Where am I going?
What's been going on with my situation? Hahaha, a lot; rough, good, and better. And you won't believe just how, or maybe you will. I'm still waiting for --something...and then...depending on your proximity, you may hear a yell of joy (if you haven't already) coming from the north east coast. lol.

Ok, I don't know If I'll be that loud, but I am quite happy though. And still waiting to believe it. Not doubting, just waiting to really hol it in my hands so to speak, you know, really believe it. :)



P.S. Longer letter later.

Muah,



O.F.C.J.

Status Update

Hello! :)

Here is a recent (as in a few minutes ago) status updated I put on my fb. I typed it because, well, it's true. It's very true. And it feels good to express it! :).

"Hates it when people try to take credit for my progress. Saying they "picked me

up" from where I was, "gave me" the opportunity, "Let me" show my skill.

Darling, Sweet heart, Honey...my destiny is 2 big 4 u 2 pick up, not urs 2give me, & whether u like it

or not, according 2 the command given in Isa 61:1, I would have shined regardless. It's God's

will+initiative+obedience that get me where I am & am going. NOT U."

O.F.C.J.