It's the Weekend

Hello!

So... it's the weekend!!! Haaahh! Yay... :). It's Saturday to be specific, and my day was...busy. At first I was in bed (actually I sleep on a couch...for now ;) ) looking for apartments online. Then after I felt my stomach would soon start digesting itself if I didn't feed it, I got up and ate breakfast upstairs, while continuing my search. I haven't found anything yet in the way of an apartment or a roommate. So I'm praying about both.



Later I went to the mall for a few articles of clothing, and though I was not entirely successful, I did come out with some new leggings--one pair of sweater leggings--a new scarf, a new pair of gloves, and a bag of Lindt truffles--milk chocolate (mmmm). I wanted few pairs of new slacks and maybe a nice top. But at least it wasn't a waste of time.



SO, how's the meat and potatoes of my life been? Well, in short, I need to get up on my spiritual game. I've been slacking on my relationship with God. This is def. not a good thing, as it is what drives the rest of my existence. *Sigh* I've been praying, but not like how I now I should be, and same with my bible study. Sometimes the thought of being "on point" is so overwhelming, it scares me right back into a complacent stroll. So this has to be fixed. Clearly.



At work--well, let me start from the beginning of my work experience. When I first started working at my new job in January, my colleagues were not the nicest people--let's just say. When my boss first introduced us to each other, it was like receiving an obvious blow-off. I said "hi". They looked up, barely spoke, and looked back down. One gave a small but kind hi and a little laugh after I myself let one out. I'm not sure how sincere she was though. I went about my day because I was not about to let my day be ruined by this sad excuse for a warm team welcome. I settled in at my desk and went about my first exciting day, which went and ended quite well by the way. Since then, I've experienced more rudeness from them in the form of clearly being treated differently ("Small" example:I sneeze, no one says anything, someone else sneezes, they get a "bless you".), annoying criticisms, and such. I've prayed about the situation. And since then...it's gotten better. One guy and one girl in particular have been noticeably kinder. How sincere and permanent this is? I don't know, but it's better that what it was before.
We shall see .

Something I am way more concerned about right now is my destiny and the fulfillment of it. I want to know why God brought me to this place to work. I know He did it. It was almost a miracle how I got it! Lol. But I new more inspiration to get up and go to work everyday than just knowing I'm getting paid, and being able to work in such a unique and open environment. I need to know what God's strategy is, His game plan if you will, for having me here. That way, when I feel in a slump about my performance or teammates or whatever else, I can remember that 'm there for an d Oh-so greater reason. And not just to be the best at what I do and excelling amongst my peers. Because for me, sometimes--most times--that's just not enough.

So a lot of things are happening. I'm going through a transformation of sorts. But one big one that encompasses them all. I'm gradually discovering my calling, my reason for being. And as whimsical and movie-like and cliche' as that may all sound, it is quite a big deal. I don't know how long I have left on this Earth, and quite frankly, I don't want to live just to die unfulfilled and experience Hell, or live and miss the Rapture and possibly fail the Tribulation time and be eternally condemned to Hell (because really, if I fail this phase of my life, what are the chances I'll make it through that terrible period? Come now people. Come now.). SO. I really want to make this life of mine count. I want to live it out brightly shining in the right direction. And as big as this all sounds, it really starts off with the little things. Like knowing why I'm getting up to go to work in the morning, and not letting other's actions bring out my insecurities. In fact, learning how to manage my insecurities in Christ so that no matter what others do, in the end I have control over my situation. I have a lot of exploring and realizing and absorbing to do. Whew!

President's day is coming up next Monday. 3-Day weekends!! I think I might hit up a spa?? I don't know. We'll see. I need some relaxing in my life. So much to say, grasping for structure through which to effectively express. Maybe soon I'll really sit down and express myself and what I've been going through. Until then, I'm glad I've gotten this much out! Ha!


P.S.-random-- I've been day-dreaming of warm island vacations (Seychelles anyone? Lol) and spa days lately. During work too. ...I know, I know. Teeheehee.

I'll talk to you all later,



O.F.C.J. ;) ;)