Update on the Fuse Pop Sitch

Hello there voyeurs. (lol)

Well, remember that last post? Well of course you do, it's right below this one. Lol.

Well, things have--thankfully--mellowed down, as I internally hoped they would.
I'm still moving out soon though (by the everlasting grace of God), because the lease ends soon.

How did the mellowing down happen? Well, after I calmed down enough, and humbled down (approximately 3 days), I apologized. That seems to be a theme in my life lately, apologizing. But it never gets any easier. Oh well, pride comes before destruction, so I'll just get used to the taste of humble pie. I mean, it's not that bad. I might actually need more of it, but we won't go there right now. So I apologized for the way I behaved, the things I did, and the things I said. I left it there, I didn't try to explain them through or anything, just apologized and left them there.

No, she did not apologize to me, but that's Ok--for me, because I did my part, and that's all I needed for closure, something that happens to be very important to me in life.

Lesson: You can't make other people do what they're supposed to do, or do what you feel they're supposed to do. But you surely can control your own responses, reactions, and initial actions. And that will make all the difference in your state of being, that is, whether you're in the red with God, or all right with God, and with yourself. I don't know about others, but I hate walking around knowing I'm in the red. It's like in those moments I feel like I'm susceptible to a number of risks that come with such a dangerous delay, one of the worst being missing a blessing God set perfectly in place for my current situation. And once it's missed, who knows when it will pass by again? No, I think I like being in the green. It's quite freeing ;).

O.F.C.J.